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Tuesday, September 11, 2007

LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST BEFORE YOU REGRET!!!

its been such a long time i actually blog...have many things in heart...im totally a failure...many unlucky things happen this few days...yesterday feeling very down went to changi see aeroplane also kena caught by police...lucky thing is took dwn my name and gave me a verbal warning...he warn me the consequences that i might get 3 demerit pt.. omg...phew...last nite was the worst nite of all i cant slp well...kip thinking of the problems..ended up today went back to office late again...with fear and hatred...sometimes i really think back why i just cant be like other ppl happily living their life. i just wished for a normal and happy life...follow by my "suayness" wore high heel to work today...when i reach home i found out i actually sprain my ankle...amazingly is that i did not feel any pain when im walk with my heels...i tried to msg him that i sprain my ankle but no reply as usual...how i hope those saturdays won't end so soon...those were my happiest moments...back to my "suayness" went dinner with chai xia n my sis...my sis drove the car...we went to east coast..after parking the car we happily went to the food centre and enjoy all the nice foods...we had rojak...stingray...oyster egg...after finishing the food my sis have to rushed back punggol to return her vcd...my sis ask me to walk faster...but leg was hurting badly..i really hope he is by side holding on to me...when we reached the car we saw one white piece of paper on the car...KENA SUMMON....OMG....30 bucks...this month im really damn broke lor...in the end i have to go pay...wa piang...after that i told my sis i took over the drving as if she drive the petrol sure very fast finish i also don't know y...so i speed 100-110km/h for her...after returning the vcd i send her back...then me and chai xia went back bedok...it was still early in the end we deicide to hang around somewhere and chit chat...then we found Xiu Ping out and we really chat alot...they have been consoling me alot thanks gals...after reached home CX gave me the link to crystal liew n her "bf" blog address...after reading their blog i did not despise them for being a lesbian...instead i feel happy for them...and i envy alot...at least they are so happy with their lifestyle..the love each other...how i hope me n him can be so happy like how we used to be..i am stil waiting for him...hope one day GOD will help me let him realise my love...anyway nid to go le...if nt tmr late for work again...ciao....

LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST BEFORE YOU REGRET!!!

Me, my life 11:19 AM

Thursday, August 23, 2007

today didnt go to work...on MC...damn feeling unwell...kip wan to vomit...but nobody knws...at least 1 day that i don't have to see all tat "faces"...really very sian 1/2 when i tink of going to work tomorrow...many unhappiness in work but wat to do have to jus swollow..i have been trying very hard to control myself...i have lots of personal matter too...but have to ren all the way...worst still is i kip hearing nxt time my bonus get how much is my supervisor decides as my director had submit his resignation...my supervisor is a damn selfish person...is not tat i cant work with her...is jus that i feel she is quite selfish...she jus tinks of getting the work done...but she nv tink of the team member's welfare...she wans me to help her n i cant reject...but i also have my own work load...i help the rest...then who help me...im damn unhappy...i wanted to talk to that "person" but i don't tink he is willing to listen...how i wish he could be my side..what i have plan for today has gone down the drain...many things that i could only keep in my heart and i could not say out...how i wish i could tell that person but i know is impossible...what should i do...i have waited for so long... i never give up before..i don't as for so much...i jus nid some love n concern...im feeling lost...haiz...going to sleep le if not tomorrow late got to take cab and kena blacklist le...

Me, my life 11:29 AM

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Its been a long time i never write a blog...Don't know is i lazy or i busy....But this is the first time i design a blog which i never know how to do one before...Its been so long i have step out of studies life...and it has been quite some time that i step into working life...but what i quite don't understand is why there is nothing in this world which can make me happy...for my whole life something seems to be missing in my life...what is that i don't know yet...still finding ba...but i know is there is many thing i have done wrong last time...and i really feel very regret...but what to do life still goes on...the world won't just stop because of me...but i realy wish to turn back the time...treasure what you have now before its too late...going to end here for tonight...

Me, my life 8:54 AM

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

finally i manage to design my own blog

Me, my life 10:49 AM